Latest Mom Update

This journey with my mom is a real roller coaster ride.  Or a cha-cha-cha.  Or a combination of the two, if that could even be a possibility.

Good days for her/Bad days for her.


Good days for me/Bad days for me.


Yesterday morning things started out hopeful, the day ended not so hopeful with me having a bit of a breakdown in the parking lot of the Department of Social Services.  I tried to get a grip and then decided, "oh, the hell with it," betting that I was not the first person in Boone to have a breakdown in that particular parking lot.

I have to say, the person I spoke with and the staff was, to a person, kind and very helpful.

But, they can be helpful in their own way only up to a point.

This is a whole new world for me and there are dozens and dozens of facets and puzzle pieces that need to be put together.

I do as much as I can.

I stay as strong as I can for as long as I can.

And then I'm a puddle

But.

Even during the puddles, I know I'll bounce back.  I mean - what other choice is there? 

So, this morning, I was back on the phone at 7:30 a.m. making calls and leaving messages and the day is coming to an end on a hopeful note.

But.

I have learned that in all this, I must remain only cautiously hopeful.

But.

Hopeful is hopeful, even cautiously, and that is so much better than overwhelming hopeless helpless despair.

I'll take cautiously hopeful - how 'bout you?

I don't mean to be cryptic, and hopefully on Monday or Tuesday I will have news to share.  As I said, I am cautiously hopeful.  

But, to speak it, might jinx it.

In the meantime, please continue sending prayers and good thoughts that it will be good, or at least, hopeful news.


And if it's not, send prayers and good thoughts to help me be strong and continue doing whatever needs doing.

As far as how Mother is doing.  Some days she's as good as gold, and today seems to be one of those days.  Her friend Becky, who has been a helper to my Mom through the Watauga County Project on Aging for a number years taking her shopping and to doctor's appointments, etc. has been with her all afternoon visiting and doing some housework.

My Donald is on his way to Mother's as we speak to deliver her new prescription which we hope will help with her memory.  He's also surprising her with a treat.  

I know many of you are familiar with Five Guys and those out of this world burgers they're so famous for, but if you're a fan of hot dogs like me and my mom and haven't tried one from Five Guys yet, HONEY!  You do not know what you're missing.

Hazel Wilkinson will be a happy girl.

And if he remembers to bring me one - so will I!